Show & Tell + Ink Me = a lazy lady!

Hi boys and girls - it's that time again...a bit late this week but here nonetheless!
Time for SHOW & TELL a la MEL!
Don't forget to click on over and check out what the rest
of the class is showing!

This week I decided to put together S & T with INK ME..........The great ALI Ink Tour 2009 courtesy of Kristen over at Dragondreamer's Lair.


(Since my energy has been in the pooper....I figured why not do both together!)

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This is the story of my tattoo's!


Tattoo #1 - On upper right breast: Done by a very poor tattoo artist (see pic) Still holds meaning in my heart because -
A. It's a Jewish star B. It was my first (at age 19) C. It made my father crazy!

Tattoo #2 - On upper right arm: My celestial sun -the all time favorite tattoo!! (age 22) It has faded a lot over the years but originally had rainbow colored rays all the way around! If you look closely, you can see them. I will get it re-colored one day!

Tattoo #3 - Outer left ankle: Done to cover a surgical scar. (age 24) It hurt the worst out of all the tattoo's I had done however (and I am not proud to admit this) I was totally under the influence at the time which made it more tolerable. (Oh the things I admit here)
I wanted something to tie in with my sun tattoo and this is what the tattoo artist came up with.

BONUS PIC:
Since I forced my loving Bear to take all these pics for me....he got all excited and begged me to take a pic of HIS tattoo to post......I happily obliged!

Bear's Tattoo - left outer calf: It's the clown from the music group (and I use that set of terms loosely) The I.nsane Clown P.osse. He loves them and felt (in a mid twenties fervor) that he had to get their "clown" pic inked on him! Don't you just love his hairy legs? I do!

There you have it folks - S&T + INK ME!!!!

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DOUBLE BONUS ZOEY PIC:

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Show & Tell - Monkey Crazy!!

Hi boys and girls - it's that time again!
Time for SHOW & TELL a la MEL!
Don't forget to click on over and check out what the rest
of the class is showing!

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Before I share for S & T, I need to give you a run down of my day. Today was NOT a good day for me - physically or emotionally. It did not start out good, and quickly went downhill as my morning progressed. By mid-morning, I was absolutely disgusted, pissed, frustrated and overwhelmed. All of these spontaneous emotions exploded with hysterical crying, ranting to anyone who would listen and a big ole' snot fest for good measure. Thank you medical profession for sending me to this lovely place!

I have been feeling like - "I am so freakin sick of being sick". I have been feeling like my life is never going to get back to normal. I have been having a really hard time - just "liking myself". In the midst of all this, I have just felt like the world's worst wife, daughter, sister, friend, etc.

So now you have an idea of my mindset (scary isn't it?)......

Just when I seemed to be feeling my absolute worst today, something wonderful arrived in the mail. Now hubby had told me to be expecting a package and to NOT look at the return address as it was a gift for me. (Yea for me!) So being the good wife I am, I promptly picked up the package off the front porch WITHOUT looking at the address and put it on the table. I did my very best to keep temptation at bay!

Just a bit later hubby called from work to check on me (although he is used to my insanity, he still checks in on me during my rants) When I told hubby that his "special package" had arrived, he immediately told me to go over while he was on the phone, and open it. I did not put up much of a fight.

So for Show & Tell this week, please allow me to share what my wonderful, fantastic, awesome, cool and loving husband bought me:


YEP - Designer Betsey Johnson monkey earrings!!! Monkey Earrings........Can you FREAKIN' believe it?



I even managed a no make-up, partially grey hair, worn out from sobbing all morning, half-assed smile while wearing this special treat!!!

Needless to say.....my mood has MUCH improved!!!!

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P.S. Mom - Thank you from the bottom of my heart for shlepping all the way up to Geneva this afternoon and forcing me to make Matzoh ball soup with you. I truly believe the combination of the earrings and soup turned my day around!!!! (You can tell all your friends it was the Matzoh ball soup though) Love you will ALL my heart!

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Super Sushi Tuesday....bet you missed it!!!

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Here we are again folks.....SUSHI TUESDAY.....the day of the week that I have devoted entirely to all the little things that put a smile on every one's face~

You know..... like when the cashier doubles your grocery coupon just because OR the when the clerk at Dunkin Donuts makes your coffee with just the perfect amount of sugar and cream without having to ask. Just that perfect little extra special something!

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My special something lately has been my husband - A.K.A. - "Bear".
He has been my support, friend, sounding board, and love since the day we met.

He never fails to make me laugh when I am down and to help bring me back to reality when I am really out there. He is the cooler head when I am over the top angry and rational when I am nothing but emotion. I sincerely cannot imagine a day without him in my life.

Thank you my dear BEAR - I love you!!! - Now AND Forever!

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DON'T forget to share YOUR special something for the week!

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.I have been having SUCH a hard time blogging lately. Some it is obviously due to me not feeling well enough but I really think it is much more than that. As my body continues to refuse to cooperate with me, I think a large part of this "writers block" has to do with my emotional place it has put me in.

It is a very solitary, inward place - it is a place filled along the walls with boxes. Each box has a different set of emotions inside - sadness, emptiness, hope, fear, anger, despair, joy, love, hurt, gratitude, anxiety, and so on. I envision myself sitting in the middle of this room. The boxes are all just sitting there closed up and waiting for someone to explore them. They are waiting for someone to sort them, to work through them, and put them where they belong.

I just can't seem to manage any of that right now - I just want to stay where I am - in the "nothingness" - the quiet serenity in my "stuckness".
Not worrying about feeling at all - rather just being. It is a much different place than I have ever been and I have been very alone there. I can't say I have been unhappy there however I am slowly realizing that it is time to move on. It is time to move the physical part of me in hopes the emotional part will follow. Time to start tackling some of those boxes no matter how they make me feel.

My hope is that by getting outside of this emotional place - that I will be able to move forward.
To take some of those emotions with me and use them - and maybe just maybe........... get some acceptance along the way.

Did you hear that Universe? Acceptance......that would be nice.

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Technical difficulties with this life....

Well folks ...it has certainly been awhile and all I can say is that today is honestly the first day I have actually felt up to blogging in about two weeks. My body is continuing to give me problems which I am slowly sorting through. I thought about posting a few times but just had nothing positive, healthy or interesting to say. I erred on the side of saying nothing up til now rather than putting forth my ickiness into the blogosphere.

Today I felt well enough and decided I needed to write ... so here I am.

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Life continues to plod along here - adoption plans have obviously been put aside until my medical stuff is sorted out. Each day that has passed seems to add to my overwhelming sense of loss in not being a mom. I wish sometimes I could just live in the now and let that go but I always seem to have to pick up my heart at the end of the day. I have to hold it gently in my hands, clean up all the cracks and breaks and learn to cherish it in all it's imperfections. Not easy to say the least, but just about all I can do from day to day.

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Life of the felines is status quo.
Zoey has completely healed up from her surgery - she even managed to leave a few stitches in for me to remove. (good girl) She is a whopping 5+ lbs now and growing everyday!
Babycat is well just plain Babycat.....lazy, chubby and overall low key - at least when Zoey is not making him completely crazy with her antics!

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I am losing steam here quick so I will wrap this up with the promise to post again when I feel up to it - hopefully soon!

Thanks to everyone who missed me - love you all!

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Quiet moments..........

I am pretty sure she loves her mommy, healing belly and all!
(never mind my double chin)

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